Thursday, May 30, 2013 0 comments

MusicBoxDiary: Clarity


Zedd feat. the Foxes (Acoustic version) 

High dive into frozen waves
where the past comes back to life
Fight fear for the selfish pain
And it's worth it every time
Hold still right before we crash
Cause we both know how this ends
our clock ticks till it breaks your glass
And I drown in you again

Cause you are the piece of me
I wish I didn't need
Chasing relentlessly
Still fight and I don't know why

If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy
If our love's insanity why are you my clarity

walk on through a red parade
And refuse to make amends
It cuts deep through our ground
And makes us forget all common sense
Don't speak as I try to leave
Cause we both know what we'll choose
If you pull, then I'll push too deep
And I'll fall right back to you

Cause you are the piece of me
I wish I didn't need
Chasing relentlessly
Still fight and I don't know why

If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy
If our love's insanity why are you my clarity

...Why are you my clarity
...Why are you my remedy
...Why are you my clarity
...Why are you my remedy

If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy
If our love's insanity why are you my clarity

Tuesday, May 28, 2013 0 comments

28 up

My birthday is always special every year. In all humility, most people are excited and they look forward for this day. I don't know exactly why but I just kind of get used to it. Every birthday is an extra-happy day for me. It's a day I get to see my friends, I get to celebrate with those who are dear to me, I get to read and hear compliments and acknowledgment from others, I get to receive gifts and surprises, I get an extra attention and extra love, and to put it to a simple thought - AKO ANG BIDA! hahaha

In Pinoy showbiz, Vic Sotto gets to celebrate his birthday the whole year round - he even had a birthday anniversary! And without any plans, this year I ended up having a 5-day birthday celebration. How cool is that right?! It's far from Bossing's 1 year birthday celebration but it's a close try. hahaha

So here's a brief compilation of the 5-day celebration. Enjoy!

May 22 - PRE-birthday special
Household and my birthday Honoring with Samal Singles for Christ brothers and sisters


 Surprise from Workmates ^_^

 Surprise from Manong Guard. Nah-uh...accessory to the crime lang pala sya.

 Flower Power Girl

Date Lunch

with the original team a-ba-ba

 special guest - Shynne

Thank you for all of your gifts and surprise. Keep them coming! I accept cash and bank deposits too. hahaha

 Dinner at home with barkada

May 24 - Beach Party
With the girls who know how to have fun. Notice how I smile in below photos - just happy to be with these girls.

May 25 - up dharma down birthday gift from D

May 26 - birthday with SFC CLP Service Team

wow! this will be a good read

hahaha. bulliest gift ever LOL

Wednesday, May 22, 2013 0 comments

twenty and seven

I am only 27 for another 10 hours.

So what's with the number 28 then? Aside from I am 2 years away from becoming 30 (back's hurting with these numbers), it's the age that I have set a deadline. Well, this happened years ago because I thought 28 sounds and feels old. But now that I am only hours away from it... it's not really.

  • At 28 I hoped that I am already married with kids - but nah that's not seems the way it turned out.
  • At 28 I hoped that I have made huge changes in my life - nope! still the same things for me: same work, same home, same routines, same clothes worn - shirt & jeans
  • At 28 I hoped that I have stepped on different places in the map - I haven't gone outside the country yet and traveling has slowed down for me in the past years
  • At 28 I hoped that I am financially stable - no again. i don't have an eye-popping bank account, no business ventures, no investments and no properties owned
  • The the list goes on...

So what happened in the years in between? LIFE.

I've even made bucket lists and to-do lists and some were thrown to trash. Hahaha. Yeah, I am not very good with plans but I will own that bright future. I will continue to charge ahead - not in torpedo speed though - because I'd like to take my time as I look side to side and look back as well. What waits ahead for me is something to look forward to. And having something to look forward to is nice.

So for the last remaining hours of my 27th year in this lifetime... cheers! I am thankful. I am grateful. It is a humbling experience. And It is wait-while.


Tuesday, May 21, 2013 1 comments


And so he wrote me a poem...again. But this time is to amend my request. Thank you.

by juan mathaga

pang ilang kandila mo na ba to?
pang ilang kanta na ng mga kaibigan mo?
ilan na ba ang natira?

bilangin mo sa langit,
ang mga talang sumisilip,
sa bawat ulan at mundong tahimik,
ilan? ilan na ba ang natira?

suyuin mo ang maykapal,
magpasalamat at magdasal,
sa paulit ulit na dalangin,
ilan? ilan na ba ang natira?

hayaan mo na ang umaga,
lilipas din ang gabi,
ngunit sa araw na to,
araw mo to.

ilan luha pa ang iluluha?
Mga buhok na malalagas?
Timbang na dadagdag?
Kaibigang maghuhudas?

Mga sakunang marahas?
Ilan na lang ba ang natira?
Ilan na lang ba ang hinihiling mo? Ngayong birthday mo?

ilan na lang ba ang natira?
sana mahaba pa..
para marami ka pang makwento...

published at 05/20/2013

This man is special to me. He emits darkness and sorrows in the words he write and I would admit that I am a sucker for sadness. It makes you feel human. It is humbling to know the reality of pain and that at some point we are blessed to be less lonely. I'm not making any sense right? Well, I just admire this man and I don't want him to forget his gift. I want him to remember the words that are just locked up in his mind. I want him to charge ahead with his life as I gaze a smile for him.

Here's the poem he wrote for me before in response to my "Unposted Obituary".

by juan mathaga

From the moments of silence
I saw nothing but shadows
casted upon the nothingness in me.

From a far i have watched you
I have hide myself among the stars
and moon to watch you at night.

Fire blaze up in your rage,
and all i can say is I'm sorry,
from afar i have nothing.

I am cold as ice,
struggling for words to say,
hoping i could stay...

but not a moment early,
and not a moment too late..
i have read your unposted obituary.

The response is easy,
to write the words clearly..
i am slowly leaving.

Monday, May 20, 2013 0 comments

here's to NEVER


Seeing her new Here's to Never growing UP music video almost made me cry (sniffs). The boyish slash rockstar slash bada** child-like Avril has returned. And it is such a pleasure to watch her - it's like "back-to-the-future" kind of feeling for me. The lyrics and the beat is'd know the first time you hear it. She's even with his original band. It's like she just woke up one day and decided to wear her comfy shirt/jeans/sneakers.

This is the Avril I have come to love during my younger years. Seeing her wear the same clothes in her Complicated music video is heart-warming. It's like she's sending a message that she's still that girl - nothing has changed.

Wow! This is such a HIGH.

 2002 - Complicated

2013 - Here's to Never growing UP