Tuesday, October 15, 2013 0 comments

RIOT [post] birthday celebration

Just a few weeks after our barkada had a gathering in the beach, an  occasion called for second time around to hangout. It was Lester's post-birthday celebration.

Honestly, nabitin lang kami nung huli kaya isa pang pagtitipon - bakit hindi!

Na-miss kita Gerald!!! Ang leading man ng barkada.
10,20,30,40+ years from now...we'd still look great in pictures Les. 


before sunrise in SUNSET beach

Credits to the famous "THROWBACK THURSDAY" paandar ng mga social networking. After posting series of old barkada pictures we all realized how we missed those good old days we share. 
We haven't gathered for quite some time so with just a text message we all decided to meet up last month. Finally!

And of course where else would we gather - in the BEACH baby!!!
Unlike previous gatherings, this time around most of the barkada came. 

Paulit-ulit man ang mga kwento - ang saya pa din! It was past 2am when boyfie & I decided to call it a night. Besides I had enough tequila shots hehe :)

Bottom line is it was a fun night with friends!

Thursday, October 3, 2013 0 comments


Back in the days when all I knew was school :)
It was cool to be smart and get all the attention & acknowledgment.
All this shiny medals used to flaunt in our walls but I decided to take them down and keep them in a box along with ribbons, certificates, and plaques.

I've moved on. No need to remind myself of what I have achieved.
A teacher of mine has left me this unforgettable message that I have instilled in my mind - "CHARACTER OVER WEIGHS INTELLIGENCE".
My brain cells can still keep up nowadays but they are stubborn. Hehe

Awards that are close to my heart. Left medal was from a poster & slogan making competition in our city where I won 1st place. Right medal was from a landscaping competition of our city also - we ranked 2nd.


Monday, September 9, 2013 0 comments


What are these girls up to this time?


walk.for.a.SCHOLAR year 2

Despite of the long hours at work for the entire weekdays, I was able to participate in this year's Global Walk - a program of the CFC ANCOP (ANswering the Cry Of the Poor). Somehow I was able to find strength to wake up early in the morning.

I am grateful that I became a part of this event for the second time. In this little way, I knew that I was able to share my blessings.



Oh dear August you came in rushing and passed by so quickly!
I didn't noticed the days and hours. 
So many things to-do. So many plans to make.
And here I am, catching my breath.

Then here comes the BER months already?!
Crap! I gotta catch up with my entries.

Friday, August 16, 2013 0 comments

here i am to worship

On an all-female weekend retreat that I attended this month of August, I was asked to lead a worship. Note that it is not often that a girl is given the opportunity to lead a worship so I put aside my hesitations, fears & doubts and said YES.

At that moment, I was in a middle of a struggle. So I was somehow trying to conceal and control my emotions. But it was amazing because my weakness was converted to strength which made my worship even more connected, true, humble and personal. It's not one of those with scripted and memorized lines. I tried so hard not to have a breakdown when my voice started to shake and tears were ready to fall from my eyes. It was an experience where I shared my deepest prayers to God.

My friend told me that it was just perfect for me to lead the worship. She described my worship - POWERFUL.


Thursday, August 1, 2013 0 comments

august wishlist cart

and so i am itching to purchase these online
they have been in my cart for months now
shooooo temptation! away!

Glamour Kills baseball shirts and OBEY hoodie

Tuesday, July 30, 2013 0 comments

MusicBoxDiary: trulaloo

Pink feat. Lily Allen

Sometimes I hate every single stupid word you say,
Sometimes I wanna slap you in your whole face.
There's no one quite like you, you push all my buttons down,
I know life would suck without you.

At the same time I wanna hug you, I wanna wrap my hands around your neck.
You're an ******* but I love you, and you make me so mad I ask myself
Why I'm still here, or where could I go? You're the only love I've ever known, but I hate you, I really hate you, so much I think it must be...

True love true love
It must be true love
Nothing else can break my heart like true love
True love, it must be true love
No one else can break my heart like you

Just once try to wrap your little brain around my feelings
Just once please try no to be so mean
Repeat after me now R-O-M-A-N-C-E
Come on i'll say it slowly (Romance)
You can do it babe

At the same time, I wanna hug you
I wanna wrap my hands around your neck
You're an ******* but I love you
And you make me so mad I ask myself
Why I'm still here, oh where could I go
You're the only love I've ever known
But I hate you
I really hate you, so much
I think it must be

True love true love
It must be true love
Nothing else can break my heart like true love
True love, it must be true love
No one else can break my heart like you

[Lilly Allen]
Why do you rub me up the wrong way
Why do you say the things that you say
Sometimes I wonder how we ever came to be
But without you i'm incomplete

I think it must true love true love
It must be true love
Nothing else can break my heart like true love
True love, it must be true love
No one else can break my heart like you, like you
No one else can break my heart like you


This is the perfect song!!! Just saying. 
This will be in my daily playlist - looped until day out.

Wednesday, July 24, 2013 0 comments

night drops

Up Dharma Down

I feel like a runway
Every time you take flight
Take a plane to Mexico
We keep missing the right turn
And head for the wrong
We keep blaming it on circumstance

Blame it all on circumstance
Blame it on the circumstance
Blame it on the circumstance
Im so tired of your innocence

Come back when you're done saving the world
Come back when I'm done knitting your cape
Come back when you're done saving a life
Come back when you're done pushing the mountains
And blame it on the circumstance

Are we up to no good? 


images from uddcommunity


i don't have words

I haven’t seen you for more than three weeks now. Missing you has finally taken its toll on me. Sadness is piling up in my doorsteps and I think it’s about time to open the door and face it.

What happened? Why? Would you please tell me and make me understand.

I decided not to share to the world what happened because I have a strong conviction that everything will pass quickly. You will bounce back to reality that you’re home is here in my heart. I was so sure that’s why I gave you the space and time you asked for. You needed it. You asked for it. I can’t be selfish. But giving you time and space does not mean letting you go - no, so don't consider the thought of letting me go as well.

I kept praying that I often fall asleep praying. I pray that you will be reminded of me, that you will think me of each day so you won’t forget that God has bounded us because of love. I pray that these pains will not prolong any longer. I pray that God will give me strength because I feel weak every time – every time I remember your words of quitting. Don’t quit on me! We must not get tired of loving.

I worry that if people would know - they will judge you unfairly. There’s an 98% chance that they will take my side. They might not understand you the way I do. They might give you cold stares and call you names – I don’t want that to happen. I wanted to protect you from all that because I know you best – maybe you're just having an episode - you must have a good reason to call it quits. I can't let you get hurt. I can't let you suffer. So for now, I will return a smile when people ask me about you (this means almost every day! crap!) and dodge giving out hints that we are not okay.

I tried to conceal the pain, i really did. I tried not to cry. I tried not to frown. I tried not to be mad at you. I tried not to talk about it because I don’t need other’s sympathy – that won’t help at all. The last thing I need is the pitty of people that matters to me – please have confidence in me that I will sort this all out and I will be fine. I tried not to write (know that writing is my remedy and stopping myself from writing is like refusing treatment) about it either because it will only materialize my thoughts and feelings – I will only have something to read over and over again that would remind me of the feeling. But my hopes are already falling short. And here I am – giving in to the urge of writing because all I have now are words.

I might have expected too much from you. Yes, I expect you to be by my side, I expect you to choose me, I expect you to run to me whenever I need you, I expect you to keep your words, I expect you to be there in my future – but that doesn’t seem to be case now right?  I am dead scared I guess – I guess, I haven’t put a lot of thought on it.

Now I can’t avoid the questions running in my head. Have you really given up? Have you completely shut yourself from me? Why? Don't I have a say in this - because I never agreed on this breakup! Will you really choose to hurt me and yourself? Will you endure all these for what? If you are hurting yourself in this process then please stop – please. This doesn’t benefit the both of us. Are you doing fine? Do you have someone to talk to about your thoughts and about your day? Are you okay with work? I actually think that I can ignore the past weeks and erase it like it never happened and I will still gaze at you the same way with hearts drawn all over my face. 

And today, I insisted to see you and insisted that I will wait until you show up. I was nervous because at the back of my head I know that there's a huge possibility that you won't show up. But I should not waver. You didn't reply to my invitation but I am willing to gamble the chances. So I went to the rendezvous early. Finally you cared to reply - declining my invitation because you will spend an overtime at work. That's your reason?!!! I said that I'll wait until you're done with work and then you replied a cold message - "sorry, now not please". You got to be kidding me! What a selfish prick to only think of himself and not consider the feelings of the person who held on to you for years - a person who has complete faith on the man in you! But then again, I can't be overwhelmed by these feelings (shake head) - you have reasons and one day I'll be able to hear them out.

Okay, I can't push it any further so I decided to go home alone. I kept rewinding our exchange of messages and I sensed that you might be in a not-so-good situation. Maybe you are really busy with work and thinking over a girl waiting would just mess things more - I can't put you on that torture. Maybe you are not ready to face me. Maybe there's really something going on. I'm not sure about a lot of things but there's one I am certain of - today it was clear and accentuated... I am hurting.

So the jokes on me, darn! Why? Because I still tell myself not to give up just yet – not yet! I will endure a little more. I will see it through the end – and satisfy myself that I waited enough and beyond for you. I just wish you cared. That would have been nice. And guess what, I will not care to look foolish at all. It is my happiness that is at stake here and I should have a firm grit (Clench the teeth in order to keep one's resolve when faced with an unpleasant or painful duty). There's a time for my tears to fall but not today, not today.

Tonight, the heavens cried on my behalf...