wake me up when september ends...

Today I got a chance to chat with Shynne, my former workmate. We used to talk a lot before, we exchange updates on our lives and if there's something interesting we wanted to share. We used to see each other once a month for a food trip...i miss those times. Our schedules have been busy.

She asked me today why have I stopped blogging. And then I realize that yeah its been a while. So here I am taking my shot on a blog entry :)

SEPTEMBER took all my time and energy. It was the month wherein our parish celebrated its 50th anniversary and I had a part to play in running the lined up activities.

 

 Member of the Documentation Team

 Organized a frisbee clinic. That's me...the one that's about to catch the flying saucer :)

In action

 Photo by kayibea

  Photo by kayibea

  Photo by kayibea

  Photo by kayibea

 The Team

 Feeding Program

Mangrove Planting

tum & belly

I MUST lose my tummy bulge!!! This isn't baby fats anymore...more of beer fats! (hahaha)
So I'm digging in for some articles online on some helpful tips (this isn't a hopeless case i wish!)

1. Eat more fruits & veggies - darn! im a meat-person so i think i couldn't manage this discipline
2. Cardio Exercise - hmmm...im a very busy person and im not good with schedules so i might skip or forget this step
3. Ab Twister - yeah baby! i gotta start saving up money for this


Wish me luck!

bells aren't ringing

why is "marriage" becoming a constant topic for me? (crap!) not that i am frustrated or what it's just annoying to hear people say, "hey, you should marry at your age!", "you're the only one left in your friends that is still single!", "when are we going to receive an invitation", and more blabber. i am 26, that i am very aware of. it will come (or it may not...knock on the wood) so please chill.

today, boyfie and me talked about this without awkwardness (good heavens! sign na ba to Lord? hehe). it was a fun conversation especially when he said he'd prefer to have 2 or 3 children and then i added "yes, 2 twins and 1 triplets". hahaha. but hold your horses, no bells are ringing yet. i will be flipping more pages of the calendar before that happens.

and then later tonight i attended a wake where boyfie's grandmother was also present. i tried to escape her attention but my cruel friends (pandamay!) put me on the spot when they said, "kay, your future lola". now, i am in panic mode because i didn't rehearsed for this scenario and all i was able to do was exchange smiles and gave a "mano" as a sign of respect. suddenly she whispered something to me that made me blush (blushing RED cheeks!!!)..."you two (referring to boyfie) should now marry, please".

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

shuffles

it's been one week of listening to Up Dharma Down's INDAK and i can't still get over the beauty of its poetry along with Armi's poignant voice. EPIC! EPIC! EPIC! i'd like spill out some curse words 'coz this song is so good!


Up Dharma Down - Indak

Tatakbo at gagalaw
Mag-iisip kung dapat bang bumitaw
Kulang na lang, atakihin
Ang pag-hinga’y nabibitin

Ang dahilan na alam mo na
Kahit ano pang sabihin nila
Tayong dalawa lamang ang makakaalam
Ngunit ako ngayo’y naguguluhan

Makikinig ba ako
Sa aking isip na dati pa namang magulo?
O iindak na lamang
Sa tibok ng puso mo

At aasahan ko na lamang na
Hindi mo aapakan ang aking mga paa
Pipikit na lamang at mag-sasayaw
Habang nanonood siya…

Paalis at pabalik
May baong yakap at suklian ng halik
Mag-papaalam at mag-sisisi
Habang papiglas ka ako sayo ay tatabi

Tayong dalawa lamang ang nakaka-alam
Ngunit hindi na matanto kung sino nga ba ang pag-bibigyan ko
Makikinig nga ba sa isipan na alam ang wasto

Ngunit pipigilan ang pag-ibig nya na totoo

Iindak na lamang ba sa tibok ng puso mo
At aasahan ko hindi nya lamang aapakan ang aking mga paa
Pipikit na lamang at mag-sasaya
Habang nalulungkot ka

Habang nalulungkot ka, isa nama’y natutuwa
Minsan naman ay lumuluha


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tb2uJtlZzbk

ads ads baby

Been squeezing editing promotional ads for our church's 50th year celebration.


fun run poster

singlet design for the fun run for a cause with tagline "RUN FOR GOLD"


pageant poster

Temporary Low

How much more can this heart handle?
How many goodbyes are there?
How many bonds to untie?
How many wrong turns to take?
How many falls to break?

Lord, I have stitched back all the pieces for a very long time
I was never been the same but I was able to hold all the pieces together...somehow
I rely on these breakable threads to hold all of what was left of me
I ask You Lord to keep these threads strong as I face all these waves
I wont dodge and I wont run...im keeping my faith

Streams

Crap! I am never good with goodbyes...never. For some sentimental reasons, I run. And the hard part is knowing that the person leaving is waiting for me to acknowledge her goodbye. I don't have the balls. So I tortured myself and swallowed the pain of punishing you...punishing you with my selfishness and punishing you by not giving the right gestures.

Some people stay, some people go...that's a fact in this life. We can't keep everyone we love boxed in the world we created. Everything changes. And believe me that it happens fast right before your eyes while wanting things to linger a little bit more...a day more, a minute more.

This explains why I settle in my hometown, in the house I grew up, with my same old friends, with the first job I got, wear the pants my sister bought no matter how rugged and how many patches it has, and more. This isn't about loyalty...oh no. This is about me sticking...staying...being the same...being still...and learning the lesson that everything is constantly moving and changing. And believe me when I say that I don't have problems with letting go. This world is small and we'll cross our roads sometime soon.

This is me saying goodbye. No exchanged words and no sentimental moments. I have witnessed plenty of goodbyes in the past and no matter how often this happens, it always bring new pain. So, no worries because I'd be in the same place when you look back. So what difference would it make if I told you that I'm going to miss you, that it will be hard without you, and that it will never be the same? Let's just not make it harder.

I won't defend the actions I have taken because I know that I was cold, cruel and rude. Sorry. But again, know in you heart that I wish you well and I'm still here. This is all I can afford.